Eleven weeks old!
Room with a view! (and a Starbucks cup, to make it feel homey)
Maybe it's not the best view, but you know what... Parker loves the sunshine!
We are happy to be there, but the happiest part of the whole room is this piece of paper:
I sat there yesterday, holding my sweet little baby boy, and for some odd reason could not stop the tears. He is BREATHING. Unassisted. After eleven weeks of life. It's not TECHNICALLY his first breath, as he cried a few times when he was first born and has had two off-oxygen trials this week. Still, as I sat there watching his tiny scarred chest rise and fall completely on its own, I got hit full in the face that every breath he takes is a gift from God. There's just no two ways about it. Weepy weepy weepy. I kept singing the last verse of "In Christ Alone", which is one of my guaranteed-to-cry-during-church songs.
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from his hand.
'Til he returns, or calls me home
Here is the power of Christ I stand.
Pretty sure I need this for his room!
He did great off his oxygen overnight, and I think he just might be out of the woods from a breathing standpoint. All that remains to get us the heck out of there is to get off of Ativan and to do our best with eating. I am pretty sure we'll be going home with his feeding tube, but I have every intention of being rid of it ASAP. He has no physiological problems keeping him from eating-- he has not-too-bad reflux, but that's it. No puking. No choking. He's just a lazybones and he doesn't really know what it's like to feel hungry. He CAN eat (I got him up to 70 ccs orally at one feed), he just chooses not to all the time.
I did my first round of NG tube insertion today. (I'm sorry, but what on earth is that doing on YouTube? How did that sweet man get roped into volunteering for that??) It was not my favorite thing, but honestly not awful. Parker doesn't love it, but he's over it in less than 10 seconds. There was much hand-flapping on my part, coupled by an inexplicable desire to sneeze. Now that I've done it once, I feel fine practicing a few more times before being responsible for doing it at home. I would prefer, however, for that to be a temporary situation! Get ready, P-nut, 'cause there's a storm coming. Home will not be a place of rest and relaxation. You will be enrolled, upon arrival, in Mommy Boot Camp to kick the NG tube to the curb! Why? Because this is just too adorable for words:
Sweet sweet boy with no tubes!! (this was during a tube change today)